On Monday October 1st I made the choice to euthanize my dog Sophie. To call Sophie my pet minimizes how powerful a bond we had. She was my best friend and closest companion and was beside me for every great event of my life.
Sophie was born on May 17th 2000 and I bought her from the pet store on July 24th of that year (on a credit card for $615..00 - money I didn’t have). I took one look at her and fell head over heels in love with her. She was an adorable ball of fur and I knew I needed her in my life. It was meant to be.
Shortly after getting Sophie I met my (now) husband. Many of our dates included walking Sophie. Sophie was with me when I moved away from home into my first apartment, got married, moved into our first home (a condo) had our daughter, moved into our first house and had our son.
I was at school and at home for most of her life and she was always at my side, following me around throughout the day. We were rarely apart. I took her almost everywhere with me. She always slept in my bedroom with me (from the time we lived in the apartment at 1year of age.) but after Mike would go to work she would hop up on the bed and snuggle with me until I got up.
She was a constant source of comfort and companionship for all 12 years of her life.
We took her on trips and had more adventures then I could ever recount here. I’m having trouble now because every moment of every day is missing her. Even now as I type on the computer my eyes stray to the side, where she should be sleeping on the couch or floor near me. Our lives revolved around her needs and her care and her absence is palpable.
Her loss is a gaping hole in my life and heart
My heart just isn't into anything right now.